erratic fall thoughts.

I’m quite certain there aren’t enough weekends in fall for me to accomplish all of the fall activities I’d love to do. Not to mention all the homework/studying/assignments I’ve got to fit in to the normally busy schedule.

All I have been listening to for the past week are the sweet sounds of Mumford & Sons and Wakey!Wakey! Even after realizing this I can’t stop it. They’re just so lively, and have awesome lyrics, and sound like the sweet sounds of Fall rolled into amazing bands.
Someone should probably stage a scarf intervention & by that I mean I’m running out of space & need a storage idea option. #someonehelp
“Because I Said So” movie is playing right now & it could not be the most fitting movie for the way I’m feeling right now. Not quite 100% sure why. But it’s adorable, and kinda makes me wish I had a sister or two. Not to mention I’m totally gonna dress in the awesome classic clothes Daphenne Wilder wears when I get to that age :D. Plus the difference in Johnny and the lame Jason is quite funny. Shows you not to judge a book by it’s cover. And my second favorite movie quote lies somewhere within the lines of this script. Also, I love everything about this movie.

Pumpkin. Pumpkin. Pumpkin. Beer that is. It’s pretty much rocking my world. If you’d like to try some of the best, you should check out Dogfish Head Punkin Ale or Southern Tier Pumking.
Prediction for the fall / winter. My outfits will all consist of leggings, long tank, boots & a fantastic scarf. You’re right I don’t see a problem with this either.
The Cowboys are playing the Panthers here in Charlotte this Sunday & I’ve got to admit that I’ve never been as excited about a sporting event in my life. Excited to see the game. And surely hoping my boys play well & grab a win. I’m also a hundred percent sure I’m sad that I didn’t order my Personalized Jersey in time to have it to wear on game day.

I’ve had this strange urge to wear plaid [ whether it be a plaid flannel shirt or plaid patterned anything ]. I found a shirt at target tonight, but couldn’t make the plunge. Am I really gonna wear that ? Who knows with me. However, I did set my sight on a sweet scarf! Who can argue with hunter green, mustard yellow, navy & off white ? I couldn’t either.
Have I mentioned football watching, scarf wearing, pumpkin eating/drinking season is my absolute favorite? Because man, there literally is nothing better than this time of the year.

Side note. I should be ban from Target. For my own good. Why do I want everything there? Why?

Just like that my random thoughts shall end. I’ve had such a delightful fall so far and I cannot wait to see what’s in store for the rest of this wonderful [ also favorite ] season of mine. I’m gonna get back to watching this awesome movie I’ve popped in & hit the sack soon.

PS. My favorite quote of the movie is….

“‘Cause you were so nervous, you laughed like a hyena in that beautiful polka dot dress of yours.”

“Really? Mmm-hmm. I’ll tell you one thing, through. You did not have me the moment we met because I wasn’t even sure that I liked the fact that your staff talked about you behind your back at the dessert table. And, excuse me, but, truth be told, I didn’t like anything that you ordered for me on our first date, except the calamari. And okay, fine, yes it was nice to not have to think for a change, but who wants someone who doesn’t think? Look, and sometimes you laugh when I cry and say, “Huh?” when I make perfect sense. And never, ever in my life have I burned a chocolate souffle until now and that, in and of itself, oh my God, should have told me I don’t feel like myself around you. And I would have decided that a long time ago if it weren’t for my mother. Because who wants someone who laughs like a hyena in a polka dot dress that my mother made me buy?”

“I love that dress”

…… Oh boy, if that doesn’t say it all.

:) Goodnight Folks.

— samdann

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hello 430am. didn’t really care to see you.

There’s something about getting up real early. About starting off on the right foot. Whether or not today’s early morning rise was due to the fact I was unable to sleep since 4am & decided I might as well get up and do something.. It was sure a great, productive, and ultimately a fulfilling day.

Started off getting all my reading done before getting ready this morning. That was nice, and more helpful than hitting the library after class. Also finished up my Excel Project which was sweet to check off my to do list. Taking my time & actually able to fully get ready was a definite change. Left for work way early, making it peaceful to not have to worry about traffic. Sweet sounds from my new Autumn playlist made the commute extra enjoyable. Got my favorite parking spot to back Sophia into. And scrolled on into work. Focusing more on work stuff since I didn’t have to worry about classwork on my break.

After work, I was able to snag a cute bench outside one of the school buildings and enjoy a little of the absolutely gorgeous day while finally getting to read in my ‘just for fun’ book [twyla tharp. the creative habit.]before class. Been struggling to find time to read in my personal reading, since I always feel like I should be reading or studying for classes. But man, let me tell you! Being all caught up and ahead of assignments for class sure makes them a lot less stressful ;) [I know common sense, but this semester is one of the first times that’s happened.] Makes a world of difference!!!

Then instead of picking up the dinner to go, as I hate eating in somewhere by myself. I decided that I wanted to eat in & was accompanied by awesome words of my book :) But a fun change. Was looking forward to popping out this blog every since I hopped in the car to leave campus! And now that I’ve written it, gotta fill out my answer for the ‘Q&A a day’ journal [Q&A Journal] and I am gonna throw in the towel on one successful day! :)

just for fun reading. the creative habit.

I can only hope that come tomorrow, at the crack of dawn… my love and joy of a proactive early starting day will win out over my love of staying all cuddled up in my amazing bed until…. the… last…. possible… minute…. ;)

guess we will see….

guilty balance issues.

I fear that my birthday and the start of new habits came at the worse time. I had just got myself into a good routine and now I feel like I’m already slipping off the bandwagon.

Charleston Bridge
With the start of classes infused with planning & taking a birthday vacation trip to Charleston totally has thrown my newfound semi-routine.
I haven’t been so behind on my Project Life binder as I am now. Not even sure how I’m gonna get caught up!! Not to mention its horribly sad because I had so many things planed for my birthday weekend spread.
The Creative Habit
Part of my 24 in 24 list was read 12 books. There’s so many new books ive wanted to read, not to mention the couple sitting on my bookshelf I’ve yet to dive into. And I had been doing really well with this one so far, but with the start of school. There’s always reading to do for classes and I feel guilty ‘pleasure reading’ when I should be doing class work.
Let’s not even get into working out. That ship sailed about 2 weeks before we left for Charleston. You know because of all the obviously important birthday shopping & outfit planning that needed to take place.
My attempt at collecting my thoughts and blogging more has fallen quite short as well. Although not due to the lack of blog ideas coming to mind.  And partially to do with the void of time and a lot to do with the fact I have to create a website for a class. Again the guilty feeling that I shouldn’t be contributing to my personal website with that due date creeping up.
It seems lack of time, guilt, and balance issues are the theme here.
Well, time to hop off the blog and try to conjure up a game plan.

a week in review.

This week has been a lot of things to say the least, lots of things going on up inside the brain & lots of overwhelming feelings as well with random ones of course!

♥ I am in love with writing on this blog now. It’s so fun and such an outlet, every time I hit publish on a post I smile. It’s exciting to just get my thoughts down.

 

♥ After wearing a bow in my hair on sunday, I’m quite upset with myself for not wearing them more often. I forgot how much I adore them :)

 

 

♥ After awhile of being without any pets, we’ve finally gotten another kitten. It’s into everything, like really. I had to pop the hood & get it out from underneath that in my car yesterday :-\ Not the best place for it to hide.

 

Baseball season started. Woot Woot! I love baseball season. Getting a pop up on my phone about the home run Mr. Derek Jeter hit put lots of smiles on my face! Hopefully I’ll be able to make it to some local games this year :)

 

♥ Reading the blogs I follow in the am are the highlight of my day. They’re so inspiring, I learn so much from them, & sometimes I feel like they have typed exactly what I needed to hear.

 

♥ Shopping for scrapbook stuff for ProjectLife is now one of my favorite things to do.

 

 

♥ There’s been a lot to happen in the past month that has brought a lot of closure to things that felt like they were still effecting me. That’s felt good to not necessarily to let it go, but just let it be part of my past.

♥ I can’t go a day without listening to Lee Brice’s ‘A Woman Like You’ song… literally have listened to it multiple times a day since I fell in love with it a few weeks back! “You know I get sick deep-sea fish in’ and you make the best fried chicken. I got a hopeless golf game. I love the sound of your name. I might miss that old green ‘Nova, but I love watchin’ you do yoga. I’d take a gold band on my hand overbeing a single man..” Favoritepart :)

♥ I’m super duper, extremely, horrifically, upset about not going to the NHRA 4-wide race this weekend. Like sad. Really sad. I have been really looking forward to going for awhile now. Definitely sucks.

 

 

 

I WON!!!! A Project Life kit from this sweet blog !!! I never win anything hardly!!! But I won :) I’m still oh so super excited. Definitely made my friday, fo sho!

 

 

♥ I came across an awesome quote on Natalie’s sweet blog that hit home. ‘Strive for progress, not perfection.’ via I have been trying to go from 0 to 100 in one swoop. I need to step back & remember that you’ve got to start somewhere. And it’s not going to be perfect the first time around.

 

 

♥ Allergies. Allergies. Need I say more? It’s been one of the absolute worst years in a long time for mine. It  brings me back to my ridiculous childhood days of dealing with all this mess. And nothing helps. About to go get the shot that the father & brother got. #goawayplease

♥ Gorgeous afternoons spent sipping coffee, writing on here, and working on project life are the best days!! So relaxing and nice. And unlike last week where I stayed ahead during the week, I’ve got a lot to do today!!!

 

 

 

 

 

Hope everyone has an amazing saturday!!

one two three. here we go.

It’s amazing at what a long relaxing day and a hot shower can conjure up in one’s mind. I have never been big on new year’s resolutions. Mainly because a new year is not needed to make changes, if they are important they should be enforced reguardless. With that said 2011 in a whole, wasn’t exactly a great year for me. In fact I can go ahead and say it was the worst year. Not to sound dramatic or anything… heh. But after that I’ve sure got to hold some kind of hope that twenty-twelve has something better, or at least just not worst than it’s predecessor. The whole cliche’ looking and reflecting back on the year has made me come across somethings…

one. I have never been an overly emotional person before. Well… I am, however I have so many I just try to bundle them up inside.  I keep them inside myself, deal with them, and let them pass. I have done a ‘pretty’ good job at that up until this past year. Then life came and piled one thing, after another, after another at my door step. Of course in attempt to not be out-staged, topped itself off with an extremely upsetting event. After that I had no clue what to do or how to get up from everything. I never thought I could feel that much, then of course I felt bad for feeling everything, and tried to reach out. I didn’t find as much as I thought I would. I guess that’s where I’m getting with this… I need to accept that when I haven’t really asked for that kind of support before, it’s not their fault that some didn’t really know how to give it to me. I have been totally and extremely appreciative for the few that did, it really has meant everything. Really. Thank you. But I’ve kinda been angry with the couple that didn’t. I guess it’s because, although I have no idea why, I thought they would understand most. And I need to let go of that. That’s the key to getting through. The wonderful phrase that keeps coming up in my life, “it is what it is, and it ain’t what it ain’t.” I have to stop expecting things to change from what they’ve always been. I got through it then, and I am finally starting to realize I am going to get through it now.

two. I’ve always had a plan for life. Everything that was important to me and everything that I wanted to accomplish in the next five years. With everything changing and being shaken up so much lately I’m left with complete uncertainty. That’s terrifyingly hard for me to swallow. With where I am at now, there doesn’t really seem like there’s a path avaiable to take me where I want to go. So that’s what 2012 will be. A year to figure out another path. I need to accept that just because I’m not a hundred percent sure exactly where to go doesn’t mean I’ve failed. Things have changed. It didn’t feel like a good thing at the time. A terrible thing actually. But maybe I should start to look at it as if it is. It’s just put me in a difference place. I’ve just got to adapt. In the words of a great friend’s favorite quote, “Not all who wander are lost.” I’m not lost. I’ve just got to rebuild and restructure the path….

Whew. It already feels better and a huge relief to get that out. I’ll save number three for later ;) just kidding, there isn’t a number three. Boy, I love writing it all out. Sure puts it into perspective a little better.

Oh, and I know what you’re thinking…your disappointment…  a whole post and I didn’t mention anything about Sopiha. I know you are sad & I don’t want to upset. So i’ll go ahead and mention that Sophia turned 1 month old today :) hehe. You’re welcome.

2011 you are over with. 2012 you have just begun and you are a blank page… in the words of another good friend ” 2012 you better bring it!” and I mean it!

here's to the one thing I'm not sad to say goodbye to.

[ not to sound cliche' or anything & in a Mario voice ] “Here We Go..”